I don't make sense.

Don't get me wrong, I love photography and all. I love how you can capture a moment and keep it almost effortlessly. But, I am a firm believer that some things shouldn't be captured by a camera. I like to think that you should have some of the best memories kept in your 'memory'. Do you really need to take a picture of EVERYTHING you are doing for that day?
But, I do love photography, and I'm always taking my camera out and taking pictures of things that catch my attention... So, I guess I'm pretty much contradicting myself?

Something happened to me that only confirms how weird I am.. :/
I met this way chill guy, and he seemed down-to-earth. Well, we hung out and I guess he thought that we were more than friends slash though I liked him. When I say like, I mean LIKE liked him. So, we were talking and I was trying to explain that I'm just on a pursuit to find friends and make all the friends I can. I'm not looking for anything serious, and I was like I really have no desire for that. I asked if that was weird for me to say, and he confirmed I was... hm. I guess if I ever come across someone to catch my attention, then I'd give them a chance, maybe (; haha.
Something to note:
I ate beto's last night, I really think that was the highlight of my day.
I'm bound and determined that my hair has reached its optimal growth point :/
My newest niece is theeeeee cutest thing I've ever seen.
Half tempted to go jump in the snow.
I've been craving sandwiches a lot lately.
At work, there is the cutest resident with dementia. I told him that I'd was going home and I'd see him tomorrow, and I told him to stay out of trouble while I was gone, he just laughed. It was a great reminder why I love my job.

Page filler.

You know when they write the newspaper, and there is that empty space at the bottom of the page? Well, they have to somehow fill that space... and it's called a page filler- it has no relevant meaning to the material otherwise stated and people just read them because they have nothing else to do. I feel like that word describes me so well- it's almost eerie to think about... I know this sounds very "emo" of me, but I've been thinking a lot lately. I've been thinking that I'm not good at anything. I feel that I show nothing special considering I've been alive for 20 thriving years. Maybe that's why I always have that constant feeling that I'm missing something, because I'm not doing anything special. I don't want to be categorized in the category as a middle child. You know, middle child as in, you basically just fill up space and do absolutely nothing. (I have nothing against middle children, it's just a figure of speech). This quote sums things up.
"We’re the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War’s a spiritual war… our Great Depression is our lives. We’ve all been raised on television to believe that one day we’d all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won’t. And we’re slowly learning that fact. And we’re very, very pissed off."


Well, here are some pictures

 My favorite part of Ogden. So peaceful.

 Moccasins. 

 I'm seriously in love with Fall! I love the atmosphere of it. So relaxing and such a great feeling of going outside and having the fresh air surround you.

 Went to a haunted house! 

 Pretty much sums up my life. Booooo ):

I'm going to make a bracelet like the one on the bottom of this stack.

Put together this outfit, and I really want it!!!

Call the doctor.

No, really call the doctor. I'm starting to get my first cold of the season. So soon? ): Why me? Meh, I guess I'll just get it over with. Tomorrow I'm taking a trip to the store to load up on vitamin C and zinc.
Well, this last week I really put off doing homework, laundry, cleaning my car, and um... pretty much everything.

Well, it happened...

Regardless of my constant dread and begging, I turned the BIG 20. Surprisingly, I feel different. Maybe it's just me over thinking the whole thing, but I really do feel different. Older? Wiser? Closer to death? Maybe all the above? Who knows?...  I detest my birthdays- if you haven't noticed. I just hate the thought of "growing up". Growing up entails: A job you hate, predictable days, no time for friends, buying groceries, and all that other nonsense. I don't know, maybe I'm looking at this whole thing from the wrong perceptive.
Well, I hate my new job. I hate my boss. So I'm painstakingly throwing in the towel and going to put in my two week notice. Yes, I've only worked there a month, but I want to just take a trip, meet people, read a book all day, start getting into learning again, and spend the night at my sister's house. So to reiterate, yes I am quitting all my jobs. Well... I will still periodically work in Brigham, just because car payments don't pay themselves- sadly. My whole life I've been working since I was the appropriate age, I just want to not have to worry about going to work everyday. I guess this makes me sound really lazy, maybe I am. I don't really know what I am or what I'm not at this point in life. I don't think this is normal... not just anybody would quit their job that pays them almost 12 dollars an hour. I may or may not regret this, but I guess we'll find out. The feeling of something missing is persistently growing into a big knot in my stomach, and it gets so bad that I feel the unnecessary urge to emesis. To much information? :/ hah.

If you play with fire, you're gunna get burned.

Just when you think things are going smooth- life hits you straight in the face. No warning and it comes full force. Well, maybe there is a warning, I just ignore them, usually... and it's biting me in the butt now. So, all in all, I guess this mess I'm in is all my fault. Correction: it is my fault! I don't even know where to start to fix it. It's like a really mess room, and you don't know where to start cleaning. Maybe I shouldn't even try to fix it...
I don't know what else to say on this subject. Other than, I ruin everything good in my life. Sorry this is so vague and spontaneous. I guess we'll see how this all plays out. Wish me luck, I'll need it.

On a more bright and relevant note. I started my new job! Pretty cool. I get to give IM injections (inter muscular injection), collect UA's (urinalysis), and  that pretty much sums it up.. haha. No, not really there's a lot more that I do. I'm just to lazy to explain it all. Um, school is goooood. I'm actually studying. (don't act so surprised...). It's been a while since I've met a new friend, so my goal for this week is to hangout with someone new this weekend. I got a raise at my job in Brigham, well it's pending so I'm not sure how much it's going to be. I took my nose ring out. Not because my Mother had a nervous break down about it, I just felt like taking it out for some weird reason. My birthday is coming up... not excited either. :/ UGH.

I'm in love, and I don't care who knows it...

He's better than James Franko, and that kills me to admit.

Chord Overstreet. Aka Sam Evans from glee. Oh, the things I would do to this boy... excuse my inappropriateness! But really! Haha.

Anyway, on to something not as interesting. School is, um, good. Work is, work. Speaking of work, I got a new job in Ogden.
I was mentally preparing myself to write a lot... but, I really need to do homework and I think I smell something cooking. So, I'll try to write some more later (:

PET PEEVES...

Stop. First and foremost. Right click here. Open link in new tab. Enjoy. (:
I thought you guys should probably listen to what I've been liking lately.
So, while I complain and bicker you can at least have something to like...


I think it's appropriate to state that the things I list further down doesn't necessarily mean that you bug me or that if you by some weird uncanny chance you do something listed doesn't again necessarily mean that I hate you. So, people calm the heck down. Don't be offended. Don't change because of me. That's the last thing I'd want or expect. But, I'm flattered nonetheless :p
Now, to get down to business... Lets just say that I'm a pretty laid back person...but somethings do set my teeth on edge!

(No particular order, I hate them all the same). Ha.

1. Long finger nails slash toe nails- On a male or female. WTH? Cut that sh*t. Okay, that was harsh... but really, trim. Now, some natural long nails look good on some people! So, kudos for you.

2. Pants with no back pockets- Specifically jean pants. What's worse that jeans with no back pockets? Probably nothing. Except the classy "tramp stamp" But, if jeans with no back pockets are categorized with tramp stamps, then you really do deserve to wear them. Hahaha. That really made no sense. Hopefully you get my point. (My subconscious is feeling remotely bad, so I'm sorry if you wear pants with no back pockets :/)

3. Buying water bottles- This is so bad for our planet! Are you that naive? Plus the companies that make billions of dollars from selling you water. Need I say more?

4. Rude jerks- Swallow your pride and start being nice. No one likes you! We just pretend to so you're not a meanie to us. (Note: So many inappropriate words came to my mind to use instead of "meanie").

5. Girls- Girls in general bug me. A select few actually are my friends. I'm totally serious about this. I'll have more guys at my wedding shower, baby showers, bachelorette party, ect. than i'll have girls. Sad, I know... ): They are very two faced. You think your best friend has your back, then the next day she is talking crap on you. Plus they persistently try to one up you.
But, the girls I do get along with are the most wonderful, kind hearted, funniest, loving, beautiful girls ever.
(Note: I love the girls I work with too!)

Well, I'm tired of writing. I can reassure you this list isn't done... but, I'll finish it some other time. (:

Pretty sure I'm already deeply in love with this girl!!! ^ :D I do wish that she was a little more chunky though! Chunky babies are the best!